What I’ve learned from tumblr

The upsides to having a blog  are that I get to write about the things I experience or the things I learn about through the news.

The downsides are that I feel like I never feel like I’m never really talking about how these things that I experience help change and grow into a better person.

Now on to the subject of tumblr. I’ve been on tumblr for 5 years this past fall now, which is quite frightening now that I think about it.

I joined tumblr 5 years back so I could promote my writing, something that didn’t quite pan out the way I wanted to.

I instead spent 5 years making friends, learning how to write better (even if only a little) and somehow managing to drift my way through the ups and downs that is tumblr fandom.

For those of you involved in Tumblr fandom discourse, you know that it can be full of fun people who love writing and drawing and gif-ing AU posts and doing all sorts of creative things disperse among their fellow bloggers.

It can also be a place where people can connect with other like-minded people, which can be a big relief for those suffering mental illnesses, or abusive families.

Throughout my 5 years on Tumblr, I’ve also found that Tumblr is a very scary place. There are people on that website that have jumped down other bloggers’ throats just because they didn’t understand a joke or because one well-known blogger disagreed with them and everyone else thought it would be a good idea to bully them into deleting their blogs.

 

My own experience on Tumblr has always and will always have its ups and downs, but thankfully I have never personally experienced any of the people I follow outright attack someone else or have been attacked by someone else to the point where that person has left.

Anyways, this is what I’ve learned from being on tumblr.

  1. The struggle to get people of color into mainstream Hollywood isn’t new, but people are beginning to recognize that which is nice.
  2. When people on tumblr make a big deal about a big movie/tv show whose main characters are LGBTQA+ and POC (or any combination) and/or whose morals line up with yours, it may not necessarily be for you. It’s okay. It`s good to support all the shows and movies who are written/directed by and starring PoC, but you can only support so much. Dont try and do it all at once. You`re only one person.
  3. You will come across people who are struggling. You will come across people who are blogging in order to get out of their abusive homes. You don’t have to reblog those posts. I know it kills you. But you don’t have to.

And that’s all I can think of this time.

Feel to discuss and thanks for reading WordPress!

 

Adrienne

 

 

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Week 2.5 – College stuff

Second week of school halfway done, so far so good.

 I’ve a history quiz later still which is unnerving – I studied the wrong books. Something I didn’t know until Monday. I’m reviewing still but it’s a mistake I had to make in order to learn.

No use stressing too much about it now. I’ve review to do still and I’ll do my best either way. I’ll repeat all my key words so it’ll stick better. 

At least I know which book to study now. I’ve the rest of the year to do better. 

I don’t know what to make of such positivity or of such – determination to follow through. 

It’s weird. It’s nice. It’s comforting. I feel like I’m finally making something of myself – or rather discovering more of myself. 

The confidence is there. All I must do is draw from it.

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Adrienne

School Adventures Week 1

Well, I survived my first week at college

I’m only taking three courses this semester, which is fine enough – It’s so much more than I thought it would be. 

Especially my History class – keeping in mind it’s a second year course. There’s gonna be twice as much reading.

I don’t know how it’s gonna turn out but I think I’ll manage. It’s only the first week after all.

I’m hoping…I don’t know what I’m hoping. I’m definitely aiming to be healthy though. 

Being healthy and doing my best is what’s most important right now. I have school and work to think of and balance right now, so I’m hoping everything works out fine.

I am determined to make it so. All my courses are ones I am excited to take and to continue pursuing. 

ESPECIALLY the Creative Writing.

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All the best

Forgetting

Dear WordPress,

I’ve recently remembered how easy it is to forget why I start doing things like these.

It’s mostly for myself.

I write blogs because it’s fun. I write blogs because I want to remember.

I want to make videos because I want to remember how good it feels to do the things I do ( which most days, is not much ).

That’s not to say that I have a lot of bad days. I just have a lot of neutral days where things don’t often stand out.

But then, most days I spend trying to figure out how to make the day productive. Most of it is taking care of myself or doing laundry or trying to schedule meet ups with friends.

Most recently, I’ve been trying to figure out what my extra curricular schedule is gonna look like during school.

So far I’ve gotten down to wake up at 5:45 am, have breakfast and slowly wake up, and then at aroumd 7 or 8am walk to school.

As my morning classes start at 8:30 and 9:30 am respectively on Monday – Thursday, I’d prefer to be as awake as humanely possible when I get there.

Not to mention the exercise will be great.

All these things I am doing for me.

I just…I may have forgotten that recently. Taking care of myself is important. Let’s hope this is gonna help me get there.

Anxiety

You know the feeling where you get so ridiculously anxious over such little things that you just…

Sometimes I feel like it’s not real. Like I’m making it up for attention.
Like, today I crossed the street while reading a book and someone told me “Really? You’re crossing the street.”

It’s a valid comment and I really should have been looking where I was going but today was a day for reading and enjoying myself and ignoring the world around me and for relaxing and now here I am.

Still not over it.

There’s clearly something wrong. 

I’m going crazy.

Time for a check in with the family doctor maybe.

Staying healthy

Dear WordPress,

I went for a 9 km run today which was really cool. Now to some of you, that may seem like a lot or really little, but for me…

For me it was perfect. It’s the best I’ve felt in a long time. This is the best I’ve felt in a long time. There will be definitely be more hour plus long runs in the future for me.

Especially before school starts. There’s a lot of tension I’d like to diffuse before I’d start school, and it’s hard when I’ve got a job dialogue to worry about.

Not that I’m complaining about having to talk about all the things I can work on whilst at work, it’s just nerve wrecking.

I feel like I should be far more nervous about school than a job dialogue. Oh well. I’m sure I’ll be alright.

But on the bright side, an hour long run today was nice, there will be yoga for me tomorrow morning and then another run on Tuesday and hopefully my papers for my dialogue will be all filled out by the end of the evening and everything I’m worried about that’s work related will be done by the end of the month.

I will be fine.

 

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