So, it is officially back to school time and as of December I will be at this for a year straight and I am already freaking out.
Of course, this feels like nothing new because I am anxious all the time but still. It’s only day one and my anxiety is already through the fucking roof (this isn’t good, it can’t be good, I have two jobs that I have to figure out and school to manage and lunch to manage and being healthy to manage and I swear to god I’m already going to go insane before the week is up.
I can not be this extreme (3 courses, 2 jobs – one early morning, one late night) and survive and expect myself to come out sane at the end of it (I won’t.)
I have a lot of good things going on for me right now, I have the potential to do great this semester, but I can not do it all at once. I have desires to pay off my credit cards (this will take a couple more years) and I just… I’ve made mistakes I shouldn’t have and I did and I regret them and now I feel like I am going to die.
Not that I intend to, but I sure feel like doing so.
Until next time.
What kind of stories do you tell,
Oh brown eyed, sad eyed
What kind of secrets do you
What are you hiding oh brown
Eyed, bright eyed story,
What you know
Had a brief trip to the hospital today – had a major anxiety attack over financial stuff, so we’ll see how well it goes on top of the extra meds I got today.
Albeit, I am fine.
JUst one bad day.
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2015 brought us successful film adaptations of books and TV shows like Emma Donaghue’s the Room and the highly anticipated 50 Shades of Grey by E.L. James. Here are the top 4 funny moments from Guy Ritchie’s adaptation of Man from U.N.C.L.E.
#4 – In this clip, Cavill’s Solo escapes torture with the help of Armie Hammer’s Ilya Kuryakin.
#3 – Spy movies are always fun to watch because of their cool gadgets – our fourth pick has Solo and Kuryakin showing off their findings.
#2 on this list feature the amazing boat sequence in the movie, at one point during their escape – we see Solo enjoying a sandwich while Kuryakin leads his enemies on a merry boat chase on the river.
Last, but not least, out number one pick is the Wrestling sequence shared by Agents Teller and Kuryakin during their first few days together. What a great sequence this was to watch!
My group therapy’s been pushed back a week. THat’s not the issue however – the issue is me applying to become a freelance writer for a website that writes about TV/Movies etc. The thing is, I don’t have enough experience as a article writer to apply.
And even then, that’s not the issue – the issue is coming up with something cool enough to submit.
I’m gonna see if I can come up with something quick now so I have something to help keep me busy during the summer – wish me luck!
It’s been a long week. I still can’t take sass apparently. Or rather I can’t take off hand comments like “Oh, if you don’t have it, then what’s this?”
I swear I’ve had this job long enough to know when to check for products I’m not sure we have but apparently not.
I am still kicking myself, but the urge is so much more greatly diminished than it possibly could have. Not 2 months ago, this would be affecting me for a week. But there’s no use dwelling.
It happened once. That’s it. It was one mistake and there is no need for me to do anything stupid based on this one thing.
Anyways. It’s April. It’s been nonstop nonstop everything.
I get to take a video game course starting next month. I potentially get more hours (please) and LA in June. I am super stoked.
This is exhausting but I will manage.
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I am feeling low today. While me feeling low isn’t a new thing, I am feeling lower than usual.
I missed my Computer Science class today. It’s a lab, so it ‘s not like I’m missing anything except I am.
What I am missing is time. Time to do homework, time to catch up, time to get my shit back together, time to actually plan what I want to do every day.
I am ambling and I don’t know what to do with myself. (Tomorrow, the voices say. Tonight. You can manage everything tonight they say)
The voices lie and I am lost.