Meds Diaries Part 7

My group therapy’s been pushed back a week. THat’s not the issue however – the issue is me applying to become a freelance writer for a website that writes about TV/Movies etc. The thing is, I don’t have enough experience as a article writer to apply.

And even then, that’s not the issue – the issue is coming up with something cool enough to submit.

I’m gonna see if I can come up with something quick now so I have something to help keep me busy during the summer – wish me luck!

Adrienne

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the Meds Diaries

Dear WordPress,

I am feeling low today. While me feeling low isn’t a new thing, I am feeling lower than usual.

I missed my Computer Science class today.  It’s a lab, so it ‘s not like I’m missing anything except I am.

What I am missing is time. Time to do homework, time to catch up, time to get my shit back together, time to actually plan what I want to do every day.

I am ambling and I don’t know what to do with myself.  (Tomorrow, the voices say. Tonight. You can manage everything tonight they say)

The voices lie and I am lost.

Consider the following: Moms

Have you ever had those feelings where you spend time with your mother and you just think to yourself: “Gee, my mum sure deserves better?”

Like, sure, we have Mother’s Day every single year and Christmas and their birthdays to give them presents but year after year, I feel like whatever it is that I give my mum isn’t quite enough.

It’s never enough and I hate it. I hate that I can’t give my mum whatever she needs to be happy.

Have you, the listeners (readers) ever felt you owe your mother ten times more than what she deserves?

I don’t know.

Just, ever since my dad passed away four years ago, my mum has been working so hard to keep a roof over my family’s head.

She even had to deal with me struggling with depression for nearly a year and a half afterwards.

I honestly owe her a lot for having to raise me and my sister.

It just sucks that I feel I can’t give her everything she deserves and more.